change is hard. that is difficult for me to admit. i like to think of myself as a quick adapter and someone who is open to anything. the topic of change comes up a lot in my job - how to do it well, when not to do it, when it is time to do it, etc. sometimes i get a little impatient and i don't understand the anxiety that different changes produce in people. but lately i'm realizing that change can make you anxious, even good change. dealing with the good changes in my life - my friend's engagement, another friend's pregnancy, a friend's new relationship, a friend's relocation - all of these things are so great and i'm very excited about them, but i can sense a little bit of anxiety in myself. these changes mean that i have to change. my role is different with these friends now in some ways. but, i have been blessed with coworkers who are very aware of the way change and anxiety work. they are wonderful models to me of how to embrace the changes that come my way and face them with a spirit of adventure, courage, and trust. i hope dealing with these small changes in a healthy way will help me get through some of the other changes i'm going through like the loss of my grandfather.

tomorrow i'm heading down to kerrville, texas to plan whitewater ranch for next summer. i'm sure i'll have a blast, but i'll have to take a break from blogging. i know you're a little disappointed because this is the most consistent i've been in my blogging for a while. i'll try to pick back up where i started. peace.

last night at kickboxing i mastered the jumping back kick. it is definitely my new favorite kick, mostly because it is really fun to do but also because it makes me look like a kung fu master. if you're a tulsan and you catch me in the right mood (and clothing that allows for such hard core kickboxing action), i might just demonstrate it for you! even if i didn't have my "breakthrough", i have to say it was an excellent night of kickboxing. i am, however, feeling it today. it is always a bad sign when you are sore before the workout is even over. peace.

i had an excellent weekend. it actually started on thursday when rachel, mandii, lindsey, and i made our way to edmond, ok to check out a bebo norman concert. the concert was great and we had a blast just being together. i love being with my girls - they make me laugh so much! plus, it is such a great thing to see them growing and seeking out God.

another reason i went is to help at the compassion international table. 21 new sponsors signed up! that made the trip even better!

my friend, mary virginia and her boyfriend, who were traveling to st. louis got to my house about 1 a.m. we talked for a little while and then crashed. we got up the next morning and went to ihop. it was good to see her and great to meet matt. friday afternoon i went to a wright soccer game in tahlequah with teresa mcilroy. the guys lost, but they played very hard!

saturday i went to kickboxing. it was a great way to start my day. the rest of the day i read, went to starbucks, prepared for my class on sunday, and just hung out. sunday we had a great lesson from wade. AND my dave crowder band cd finally came.

some of you know i have been closely watching the mail waiting for the new cd to show up. i was actually getting a little distressed because it still hadn't shown up on friday. but, it was definitley worth the wait! after church on sunday i spent some serious quality time with the new cd. it is so good. christian music sometimes gets kind of a copycat rep i think. i've read articles where it gets slammed because it seems like christian music tries to provide the christian alternative to your favorite secular bands. i'm not going to comment on what i think, but i will say that the dave crowder band cannot be accused of that. one of the things i love about them is that they are so original and creative. how many other worship bands can you name that use a turntable, and use it well? anyway, it is definitely worth a listen at your local bookstore or on their website. peace.